Last Friday I dealt with the unexpected tragedy of my Grandmother. I remember the time, and what I was doing when I got the text from my brother. I had just gotten off of work and I was proceeding to spend the rest of the day with my boyfriend. I called him just like any regular day laughing and joking. It was later that a text came into my phone saying that my Grandmother had been rushed to the hospital because she had stopped breathing. When I got that text I was in shock, but I thought to myself it will be alright she will be fine, I will make sure I go see her tonight just to make sure everything was alright. I had no clue that there would be no next time. The next text I recieved broke me down into tears, my brother was the one to tell me she had passed. I started to cry and my sister was there too, and we both broke out in tears. My tears continued to come, and then I stopped because I knew I had to be strong for my little sister, I couldn't let her see me cry because then she would cry. So I held it in and I spoke encouraging words to her to relieve her pain (and my own).
Since the sudden death of my Grandmother, my life has changed. I have never had to deal with death the way that I did with my Grandmother, seeing her lifeless and not saying a word just didn't sit well with me. Seeing my mom in the pain she was in losing her mother, I could have lost it myself watching her tears fall from her eyes. I had tried to be strong like I should have but I just couldn't take it anymore, being strong was becoming too much, I held my mom in my arms and just cried.
Through the death of my Grandmother I have realized some very important things about life that I thought I should share with the world. The first thing I realized is that on earth we aren't meant to stay. With that in mind you have live life like everyday is your last day. You have to love as easily as you take a breath. You also have to learn to forgive, in life we are all human-beings who make mistakes. Whether someone has done you wrong, the time is now to accept a "sorry" or say a "sorry." Nothing means more in life to apologize, and even if you aren't ready to do that just remember that time is precious sometimes you have the time to change and then other times you do not have the time. I have also learned that as unfortunate as death is it has an interesting way of bringing family together, and making family realize that the time is now to appreciate one another, don't wait until its too late.
I hope you take heed to these words I say, and I hope you learn to love, to laugh at the good times, the bad times, but do not fall prey into thinking that life is all about money and working, because as wonderful as that may sound its not true. Life is meant to be beautiful, to have relationships with family and friends, and to appreciate the simple things of life, and that is the hidden blessing that we miss seeing because we get so blinded by other things.
Live life, love life, and learn to laugh at life, so that your days on earth may be joyous.
**Miss Carr**
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